Practising Forgiveness.

Waaaaay easier said than done right? Especially when you haven't received the apology you feel you deserve. Holding onto a grudge makes you feel better about yourself, right?

I wish this was true. I wish it was better for you to stay angry at a person who you feel deserves to feel your wrath.

I read a quote many many moons ago, that said something along the lines of, "Holding a grudge against someone is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die from it." I also read one that said "When you hold onto grudges you are unable to catch your blessings." While at the time it consoles you to stay angry at the next person for hurting you, what you don't realise is that you are hurting yourself maaaaaaajorly. You are holding on to the hurt when the person who caused you pain has probably moved on. Sounds harsh right? Unfortunately, more often than not, this is the honest truth.

What we fail to realise is the freeing effect of forgiveness and letting go of a grudge. I say this because I've experienced it myself. I've let anger consume me so much that as a result I've made myself feel uncomfortable in places I shouldn't have been, I've created and sustained unnecessary tension, I've had my mood changed, all because of someone who probably has no idea why I'm "acting up." But the moment I let go of the anger and resentment, I felt a weight lifted off my shoulder. I felt lighter. I could relax and be myself all over again. I held back so much for so long that I missed out on more opportunities to just be carefree.

And no, I didn't get the apologies I so desperately wanted from these people. Nor did I get an explanation about why things happened the way they did or why they did what they did. But I tell you, something about letting go of the grudge was so freeing in a way that I can't even begin to describe. Wallowing in self-pity is not a good look, and staying stuck in something you can't change does not help you in the long-run. It robs you of your happiness, it kills you inside and keeps you in a place of no progress.

Remember, you can't control a person's actions, but you can control the way you respond to them.


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  1. Nothando10 July 2020 at 05:33

    Dude😥✊🏽uyayazi iStruggle yokuba uVezi so this honestly hit a spot dude

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  2. Andi29 August 2020 at 16:25

    I felt this on a different level yerrr

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    1. Aphiwe Vezi29 August 2020 at 19:27

      I'm glad you took something from it💛💛💛

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